Answer

     I took half year to wait for an answer... Today, it finally revealed...
     I thought it will be hard to accept, but i realised im ready for it since last week, this doesnt means that i have no feelings at all, is just that i decided to move on......one of my strength is rational, and able to control myself as i will put the priority first....im not weak......after tears,i will stand up and say goodbye, its not a big deal, i dont have to die for it, im not going to beg for forgiveness or what, i just have to see it fade away and finally gone.....
      Dissappear, cant solve the problems, if there is still a question mark in our heart......i have to said that im consider as lucky, as i finally unlocked my heart......i dont care about what happen next, im just going to ignore it like i didnt see it.....friendship is hard to preserve when there is impurity, i will try my best to play my role as a best friend.....ya, friends~~~
      Goodbye, sayonara......no backward button in my life, thanks for being my problem for half year, i appreciate all circumstamces that it set me in, im free now.....yeah......

Revenge

     After watched Revenge, there are some feelings that i want to express......
     This few days, im thinking of our society where their relationship had turned so complicated, mother has two husband, daughter has two father, her brother is not her father's son....etc...sometimes, im getting confused, i realised there is no commitment in family anymore, changing partner is like changing clothes....maybe im way too simple minded, couldnt even understand.....
     Most of the aseans dream to live like western country, they follow their habits, concept, and way of thinking.......ya, i admit they are far more advance than us, but we have to make it clear that we both are different....people are magnifying modern side of western country and forget about the tradisional one, that is the reason why our society is going to the wrong path....
     Besides, i would like to discuss about revenge......there is no revenge in my life, i promised.....we learned from mistakes, make it a lesson and move on.....times heal, even the worst situation......i understand that sometimes, it is hard to let go, we hold it too tight, at the end, the one who hurted us so much had released while we are still struggling .....there is no benefit at all......i have to explain that let go is not about running away from reality, or hiding ourself from facing the truth, well, it is just a way to avoid both party from being hurt more deeply......Aiden said in Revenge, "there is no.ending in revenge, i feels empty even after i had killed my enemy..."ya, when u decided to revenge, or not letting go, you are actually digging a hole for yourself, when u dig more deeply, you need more effort to reach the ground....
     In most of the situation, our heart is the one that being stubborn.....i hope that we can live like a vampire, so that we have a choice to switch off our feelings......isn't it a win win situation.....??

Baking

     Im on the way to become a expert in baking delicious cake......weeee~~~
     I had finished my task one by one, one of them is bake delicious cake......i start from pound cake, followed by apple cobble.....Now, i feels like wanna bake a lemon pie.....
     Actually i feels wasted to spent my time in baking cake as im a gurl that want to become a doctor...maybe i should read about human anatomy, do research on my university, or maybe volunteering in any hospital....but a doctor's life is going to be busy like hell, before i enter university, i hope that i can enjoy my holiday, after that, i have to concentrate on my study and reduce entertainment for me....i believe there is a balance between sacrifices and what you will recieve...so, most of the time i accept what had given to me, and never complaint......
      Back to baking, it is a great experience.....i love to eat, espessially handmade food, that is the reason why i bake.....while i bake, im like doing experiment, mix everything together, stir....put it in an oven and rest....i will decribe it as a war.....because you have to prepare your weapons and start fighting......you will be either success or fail......if you are defeated, you will never ever have the courage to start all over again, but if you success, you will start different war to challenge yourself...there is no ending in baking.....
       Last, wanna show off my cake....haha....

     Reactivated my facebook account, but the same feelings still there......i wonder if i had make a right choice to reactivate, since i feel like my heart suffer so much.....it is squeezing my heart......
     Im a miss thinkalot, i look peaceful doesnt mean that im calm, there are so many feelings in me that i didnt show up, maybe that is a form of self protection......so that enemies wont know my weaknesses.......
      There is always a sacrifice behind every choices that i had made, im lucky to have God with me, he will help me to carry my burden, he is the best counsellor......
      Hope situation will get better soon, i believe i have a strong heart to handle it.....
     ***just wanna express....hmmm.....

MOO~~

     moo~~~moo~~~

     Haha....a nice intro for my post.....Guess what im going to introduce today??

     cow?
     Farm?
     Meat?
     ......???!!!!!!
   
     NOOP!!!! It is Moo Moo Swiss Roll!!!! But i usually call it as "MooMoo"...and i actually shouted when i saw it displayed in the bakery shop....
     This bakery shop situated at All Season,Penang...named Summer Dessert Bakery...this was my first attempt to buy a swiss roll from bakery, because im not a huge fans of swiss roll......(for me, there is nothing special about swiss roll, it is just a piece of cake rolled with cream...thats all...@@)
     When i pass through bakery shop, i saw MooMoo......im attracted by Moo Moo cute appearance, and i decided to have a try......since i got scholarship this afternoon, i pay by myself(so proud...haha^^), cost me about RM13...hmmm...
     After i reached home, i quickly unpack Moo Moo and try it, i just have one word to decribe Moo Moo......DELICIOUS!!!!!! Moo Moo is not creamy at all, and the texture is very soft, the moment i bite it, makes me fell in love with swiss roll.....i will definitely try other swiss roll that sell in this bakery shop.....yum yum...^^

     Be a stronger person, that i always wanted to be....have a stronger heart, to face all circumstances......

FACEBOOK

      I deactivated my facebook account......what a big decision for me><......im so sorry that i couldn't share the same world with my friends anymore for one month......but i think this is the time for me to transform....
     Im addicted to facebook for a very long period, i visit facebook everyday, every moment when im bored......when i wake up early in the morning, the first thing i do will be facebooking....i thought it will be one of the place that i can share my feelings and get free consultation.....now i prove that im wrong......facebook is a place that makes me overthinking....espessially when u know something that you unwilling to know or you are not prepare for it...
     Through facebook, i learned......i gain what i need......Now, it is the time to let go of facebook, a place that you can get others info easily......a place that u learned to stalk......im going back to reality, where i should be at first, do whatever i should do as a student, spend nights and days with my family members.....life still go on without facebook......
      Im not going to quit facebook forever, but i will be back only when im ready and capable to handle it......this time, im determined, nothing can change my decision.....life is beautiful without facebook^^......huh~~~