Woohooo!!!!
Im finally a university students....
I love my school and friends i met in my university, we had great time together during Msm....n im waiting for SPU orientation....
I hope the following years we can mix well and.have strong bond between each other.....i will treat them as brothers and sisters....happy!!!!
Christina Perri sang a song called Distance, i would like to copy her lyrics, that is "i will make sure to keep my distance" to start my blog...
There is a distance between all human beings, it gets further away since we have smart phones.....we cant predict what they are thinking, we can only sitting or lying on our bed, guessing what they will do next.....sometimes, we misunderstood....
Looking backwards, i realised if we decided to shorten the distance with others, we must prepare ourself to accept the worst situation that will happen between us....After all, i get into dilemma, whether i should protect myself or open my heart for others to enter.....both hurts, but i have to get a balance between this two choices......
Im removing the concrete wall built in my heart every year so that i can mix around with new friends... im not sure whether im good in choosing friends, but at this moment, i just want to enlarge my circle of friends and get to know more people......
Last, if im going to keep my distance, it means that im in a self-protecting zone, waiting for the right timing to leave that zone...if i did that to you, do forgive me, my heart is under attack....
###Entering university...hope i can handle my relationship well.....meet friends that will accompany me for five years....giving me strength...
Three days two nights to Redang Island......in our schedule, there are three snorkelling trips, which is at Pulau Rima, Marine Park, and a place where all the corals were dead...zzz
The main purpose for people to Redang is Relax......escape from City, and enjoy peace in mind......usually western people love to take a nap under the very hot sun, read a story book, or playing volley ball.....while youngster like me will choose to surround myself with sea water, playing like a kids in the sea, for example, jump when the waves approaching us, throwing sand to each other....childish huh???but its the most memorable part in my Redang Trip.....
The first trip of snorkelling is to the place where all the corals were dead....(i forgot the name of that place...hehe...we will call it as Pulau Unknown).....Well, i think this Pulau is for a beginner to learn and practise their snorkelling skills.....it was my very first time snorkelling in deep sea, i drank alot of sea water,>_<......when the water enter your mask and you accidentally take a deep breathe ....that is when the disaster started......at first i feels painful, because the sea water is very salty, i cant open my eyes for few seconds, and tried to find something to grap so that i can balance my body from floating.....(i just grap anything beside me and luckily is a hand@@)...i adjusted my mask and continue snorkelling again...(i adjusted my mask repeatedly for every five minutes...but im getting more and more excited.....^^)
Second day, we went to Marine Park and Pulau Rima. If you are looking for big fishes, you will enjoy at Marine Park, there are many fishes that i dont know their name, got fishes that have long and pointed mouth, round and big tummy, some small like ikan bilis, pass by us like a shinning moving diamonds......make sure you open your eyes big big to explore them, its super duper fun!!!.....
give you some tips :
go closer to those who bring along their bread, You will definitely attacked by fishes, it is a war with fishes....haha
At Pulau Rima, i saw many fishes that appeared on movie, for example, Nemo and Dory......this place it is deeper than marine park, i focus on their corals because this is the only place where all the corals are still alive......we started our Finding Nemo journey after jump into the sea......everybody discussed about Nemo when we finished our trip....famous childhood movie^^
I enjoyed snorkelling very much^_^.......im cant wait for the next snorkelling trip~~~~
What is luck?
Im born to be lucky, at least most of my friends said so......i get what i want since baby.....healed from duplex kidney, pass my exams with flying colours, enter my dream school, and now i get my dream course......everything goes smoothly......
I enjoy the luck that God gave it to me, but i never depends on it.....im glad that im the lucky star, as when i pray for what i want, God always help me to realised .....maybe that is the life that God wanted me to live out......as a real testimony for my friends......i always remind myself that god will only help those who help themself, luck is just a special gift that will gone someday, im just have to make sure im walking on the right path and god will lead me through all circumstances.......
Behind all the luck that i had, i felt sorry for my friends, sorry for not sharing my luck, as sometimes i dont even know why there is so much difference between me and my friends, i really wish that we can have the same fate......im not good in counselling actually, but im good in giving rational advices......When my friends cant get what they want, and i get it, i felt sorry, sorry for dont know how to comfort them, sorry for cant share the same feelings with them, but believe me, i will include them in my prayer, the only way to help them i think......
This post is about my feelings after the upu result is out.....
CHEERS!!!my friends, im there with you guys......
It is such a embarrassed moment when u fall down in public, espessially at penang international airport!!!!!! Haiz~~~
I quickly pick up my shoes and walk away, but there are so many eyes staring at me.....argh....sia sui....i wonder anybody will burst out laughing......==
Now my leg is bleeding....pain pain~~~~hope no scars before my redang trip.....rrrrrrr
Ete cafe?i dont even know how to pronounce.....do u know?give you hint>>>>>>its french^^
Wake up early in the morning to settle my dad stuff, we are so hungry as we didnt have our breakfast yet......wanna eat famous toasted bread at Sungai Pinang, but my mum accidentally drive to Chew Jetty.....haiz.....blur mum~~~Luckily my dad think of Ete Cafe, because we had visited this shop for many times but closed.....zzz.....
When we step in Ete Cafe, we are quite amazed by those cakes, and of course, their price.....O.o....$$$~~~ (we did a research before we enter this shop, but the price is still so "bling bling") we look at each other, exchange thoughts...haha...
Okay!Let's have a try! >_<*_*#_#
We tried on cream puff, chocolate cake, macaron(lavender,chocolate,rose), quiche, coffee and ice fruit juice......
Cream puff, RM15, the cream tasted like icecream, and served cold, it melts when u bite......awesome!
Chocolate cake, RM10, a very normal dessert, but if u taste it carefully, you will know that they used high quality of chocolate, fine texture of the cake makes you want for second piece....
Coffee, RM15, im not a huge fan of coffee, but when coffee matched with cake, It is a perfect couple....
Quiche, RM10, served hot, covered with cheese, a pie which is quite similar to pizza, u can pull the cheese like how pizza hut did in their advertisement.....
Ice fruit juice, RM10, if you dont drink coffee, you can actually order this, tasted sweet and special.....
MACARON!!!!!!!RM5 per piece, it is a must to taste with coffee, the bitterness of coffee will neutralise the sweetness of macaron, people in french took few hours to finish one macaron, so, never ever finish in one bite......you will definitely regret.....
Ete Cafe is one of the cafe that provide high quality of dessert in Penang, i will advise my readers to try it with friends, so that you can taste different type of cakes available each day. Im not going to visit Ete Cafe very often, but i will recommend it to desserts lover....espessially to those who very picky....
I took half year to wait for an answer... Today, it finally revealed...
I thought it will be hard to accept, but i realised im ready for it since last week, this doesnt means that i have no feelings at all, is just that i decided to move on......one of my strength is rational, and able to control myself as i will put the priority first....im not weak......after tears,i will stand up and say goodbye, its not a big deal, i dont have to die for it, im not going to beg for forgiveness or what, i just have to see it fade away and finally gone.....
Dissappear, cant solve the problems, if there is still a question mark in our heart......i have to said that im consider as lucky, as i finally unlocked my heart......i dont care about what happen next, im just going to ignore it like i didnt see it.....friendship is hard to preserve when there is impurity, i will try my best to play my role as a best friend.....ya, friends~~~
Goodbye, sayonara......no backward button in my life, thanks for being my problem for half year, i appreciate all circumstamces that it set me in, im free now.....yeah......
After watched Revenge, there are some feelings that i want to express......
This few days, im thinking of our society where their relationship had turned so complicated, mother has two husband, daughter has two father, her brother is not her father's son....etc...sometimes, im getting confused, i realised there is no commitment in family anymore, changing partner is like changing clothes....maybe im way too simple minded, couldnt even understand.....
Most of the aseans dream to live like western country, they follow their habits, concept, and way of thinking.......ya, i admit they are far more advance than us, but we have to make it clear that we both are different....people are magnifying modern side of western country and forget about the tradisional one, that is the reason why our society is going to the wrong path....
Besides, i would like to discuss about revenge......there is no revenge in my life, i promised.....we learned from mistakes, make it a lesson and move on.....times heal, even the worst situation......i understand that sometimes, it is hard to let go, we hold it too tight, at the end, the one who hurted us so much had released while we are still struggling .....there is no benefit at all......i have to explain that let go is not about running away from reality, or hiding ourself from facing the truth, well, it is just a way to avoid both party from being hurt more deeply......Aiden said in Revenge, "there is no.ending in revenge, i feels empty even after i had killed my enemy..."ya, when u decided to revenge, or not letting go, you are actually digging a hole for yourself, when u dig more deeply, you need more effort to reach the ground....
In most of the situation, our heart is the one that being stubborn.....i hope that we can live like a vampire, so that we have a choice to switch off our feelings......isn't it a win win situation.....??
Im on the way to become a expert in baking delicious cake......weeee~~~
I had finished my task one by one, one of them is bake delicious cake......i start from pound cake, followed by apple cobble.....Now, i feels like wanna bake a lemon pie.....
Actually i feels wasted to spent my time in baking cake as im a gurl that want to become a doctor...maybe i should read about human anatomy, do research on my university, or maybe volunteering in any hospital....but a doctor's life is going to be busy like hell, before i enter university, i hope that i can enjoy my holiday, after that, i have to concentrate on my study and reduce entertainment for me....i believe there is a balance between sacrifices and what you will recieve...so, most of the time i accept what had given to me, and never complaint......
Back to baking, it is a great experience.....i love to eat, espessially handmade food, that is the reason why i bake.....while i bake, im like doing experiment, mix everything together, stir....put it in an oven and rest....i will decribe it as a war.....because you have to prepare your weapons and start fighting......you will be either success or fail......if you are defeated, you will never ever have the courage to start all over again, but if you success, you will start different war to challenge yourself...there is no ending in baking.....
Last, wanna show off my cake....haha....
Reactivated my facebook account, but the same feelings still there......i wonder if i had make a right choice to reactivate, since i feel like my heart suffer so much.....it is squeezing my heart......
Im a miss thinkalot, i look peaceful doesnt mean that im calm, there are so many feelings in me that i didnt show up, maybe that is a form of self protection......so that enemies wont know my weaknesses.......
There is always a sacrifice behind every choices that i had made, im lucky to have God with me, he will help me to carry my burden, he is the best counsellor......
Hope situation will get better soon, i believe i have a strong heart to handle it.....
***just wanna express....hmmm.....
moo~~~moo~~~
Haha....a nice intro for my post.....Guess what im going to introduce today??
cow?
Farm?
Meat?
......???!!!!!!
NOOP!!!! It is Moo Moo Swiss Roll!!!! But i usually call it as "MooMoo"...and i actually shouted when i saw it displayed in the bakery shop....
This bakery shop situated at All Season,Penang...named Summer Dessert Bakery...this was my first attempt to buy a swiss roll from bakery, because im not a huge fans of swiss roll......(for me, there is nothing special about swiss roll, it is just a piece of cake rolled with cream...thats all...@@)
When i pass through bakery shop, i saw MooMoo......im attracted by Moo Moo cute appearance, and i decided to have a try......since i got scholarship this afternoon, i pay by myself(so proud...haha^^), cost me about RM13...hmmm...
After i reached home, i quickly unpack Moo Moo and try it, i just have one word to decribe Moo Moo......DELICIOUS!!!!!! Moo Moo is not creamy at all, and the texture is very soft, the moment i bite it, makes me fell in love with swiss roll.....i will definitely try other swiss roll that sell in this bakery shop.....yum yum...^^
I deactivated my facebook account......what a big decision for me><......im so sorry that i couldn't share the same world with my friends anymore for one month......but i think this is the time for me to transform....
Im addicted to facebook for a very long period, i visit facebook everyday, every moment when im bored......when i wake up early in the morning, the first thing i do will be facebooking....i thought it will be one of the place that i can share my feelings and get free consultation.....now i prove that im wrong......facebook is a place that makes me overthinking....espessially when u know something that you unwilling to know or you are not prepare for it...
Through facebook, i learned......i gain what i need......Now, it is the time to let go of facebook, a place that you can get others info easily......a place that u learned to stalk......im going back to reality, where i should be at first, do whatever i should do as a student, spend nights and days with my family members.....life still go on without facebook......
Im not going to quit facebook forever, but i will be back only when im ready and capable to handle it......this time, im determined, nothing can change my decision.....life is beautiful without facebook^^......huh~~~
Today, i went to Little India in Penang Georgetown just for Henna.....at first, we dont even know where to go or where to start our searching as Little India full of shops selling Sari and jewellery...it is quite crowded and the road is very narrow with stall selling indian's keropok...we were sweated and tired after a long searching journey.....finally we found one bridal shop which provide service to do Henna.....
Henna is crushed-up leaf with lemon juice and essential oil (tea tree oil, eucalyptus oil, etc). It's completely natural, it will leave the pattern of the tattoo that drawed on our skin after we wash away Henna...that worker in the bridal shop told us to take good care of the tattoo if we want it to last longer....it cost RM10 for one hand, so i dont think you want it to dissappear within three days right???(it can actually last for more than five days) ...My friend and I enjoyed the moment sitting in the bridal shop, listening to indian songs while doing Henna...
After one hour, it was done, we love our tattoos so much, it makes our hand looks fashionable....like wearing a fake bracelet ....i would like to intoduce this indian culture to all my readers.....Support Henna!!!^^
Im going to introduce this shop to my beloved readers....named The Mugshot Cafe....!!! Well, it is just a very small shop situated at Chulia Street, beside Rain Forest Bakery(which is one of my favourite bakery shop too^^) The Mugshot sell about five types of yogurt, and i tried two of them(honey and kiwi, walnut and raisin), i think it is enough for a breakfast.....their yogurt taste a little but sour but is fresh....it is not liquid form like what u can get from supermarket, it is more sticky...
Besides, they also sell bread, cakes and coffee...the price consider as high compare to other coffee house....range within RM5 to RM15, for the yogurt is RM10...but worth it....must have a try^^
After all, u can take some pictures in the shop just like wat i did....haha^^
After interview in Kelantan, im back to Penang, my beloved island, love it to the max^^ After election, Penang is still that beautiful, im proud to live in Penang...
When im in Penang, means im in holiday mood...but this time, i have no opportunity to visit Penang, this is because im busy with my interview stuff...i have to search and apply for scholarships...it took me quite some time to settle down....
I have alot of planning that i cant arrange now since i cant confirm with my seats in university...i dont care where they placed me at as long as it is the course that i want....this is just a simple hope for every matrix students....
After two weeks, im like busy for ntg....busy for a election?busy for an interview that has no conclusion? Busy waiting for the namelist called for interview?im wasting my time...they are not that efficient....
One month more and i will be free...im going to enjoy my holiday...the longest holiday before enter university....hmmm.....
One day more, im going to face my exam, they said time flies, ya.....its true, one week gone since i last updated my blog...and next week im leaving kmpk......
Leaving kmpk is a thought that i afraid to face. Afraid to leave my friends, roommates, classmates, and this place...i have no idea on where or when we will meet again, memories scattered around when i think of leaving....
Im afraid of the term of leaving or separation....afraid of saying the word GOODBYE...afraid to walk away from this place.....afraid to look back.... everythings seems to be so precious when you are leaving...
All the best my friends in your future undertakings....do promise that you guys will stay healthy....
Last day of tutorial and lecture, never regret to be one of the kmpk's family member, gonna miss my friends sooooo much....><
Exam, a term that frighten all students in kmpk...people get stressed because of it....tragedy of students....
Im going to face my final exam soon, people around me work so hard for this exam, me too(but seems like im the lazy one, lying on the bed all day long)...Sometimes, i can stare on the paper for more than thirty minutes, walk around, log in facebook, blogging, and did something not related to exam...certain people will take advantage on you(espesially during exam season) and i had used to it, i always remind myself to be myself no matter how worst the situation is...world might change but not my heart....
Preparing for exam is also a tiring task. For me, exam is not about knowledge, it is all about luck, techniques, and determination, you never know how long you can survive through this study week, a tension week for students....I love studying, but not for exam...( our education system is @#$!@$%%^&*!!!!!!)
Alright, gonna stop blogging now, feels guilty for being lazy..Be myself be myself be myself....elf
FRIGHTEN....@_@
Yesterday, i slept in tv room....im alone...i can hear the sound of the fans rotating....Creepy....>< i admit that im timid, i close my eyes when i watch horror movie, actually i see nothing, but still afraid because of the sound effect or you can consider it as Holywood effect...
Then, a group of malays enter tv room and started their adventure watching Coming Soon(i watched on Friday, scary....Aaahhhh.....but i dont even know how the ghost looks like...haha....because i closed my eyes....so clever^^)...
After half an hour , they screamed like hell(i think they saw the ghost), i was like jump up from the sofa, dont understand what is happening, heart beating sooo fast....dup...dup....dup....dup...(luckily they too concentrate on their movie and ignored me, so awkward).
After they finished the movie, they left me alone again...(im brave ya^^), i took a deep breath and decided to sleep so that i can reduce the fear in me.....i end up rolling like a pig on the sofa, thinking something nonsense...
The moral of the story, never ever watch horror movie when you are living in a hostel...
Jubah is a traditional garments for the arabs. It is a loose fitting outfit (like maxi) suitted the weather conditions in the region. over the years jubah has been coutured and has become a high fashion for many muslims around the world.
Yesterday we had decided to wear Jubah, we had a photo shooting session after class... haha^^(with our lecturers and pengarah)...This will be one of our memories in kmpk before we graduate....(very soon~~sob sob~~)...so, i must cherish every moment in kmpk before i leave...hmmmm, exam mood is ON!!!
(maybe not...i still able to watch two horror movie yesterday...)
English Vinglish shows the importance of English in our daily life. We might think that it is not important or necessary when we are in our safety zone, but English is the only language that able to link everyone together(might change in the future)...
People like Sashi which is a basic learner did alot of mistakes especially grammar mistakes for the first few months(it is unavoidable). The mistake that i remembered the most is "I......Sashi....", she repeated almost everytime when she wanted to introduce herself (maybe she is nervous). Her daughter felt shameful to has a mother like her.
Besides, she said that "im doing ......vegetarian" when she wanted to order breakfast. She cried and ran away after being
Insulted by the cashier. After that, Laurent, a french guy came and bought her a cup of coffee, that is when he fell in love with her beauty.
Sashi's mistakes actually bring alot of fun in this movie.....i really enjoy this movie because of her awesome performance...It really inspired me....
Today, im going to talk about Sashi's husband. I had forgot his name and also his occupation. Actually i didn't put much attention on him as i think that he is just a small character.
In English Vinglish, he love his family, this can be proved by how he interact with his family members, especially when he get mad on Sashi for dissappeared without reasons while everyone is so nervous about her injured son...
In the movie, he hurt Sashi the most for being not sensitive(like what i wrote in last post). He always looks down on Sashi as a traditional indian housewife that has no other abilities beside making Ladoos. He never support or encourage her to be a modern housewife(maybe he just afraid of losing her). When he realised that Sashi being weird after he reached US, he had suspicious against her...
That's all for Sashi's husband, let's have a look on his photos....
